It's A Lie A Kiss With Opened Eyes

bored

2005-03-15T01:43:16Z

Okay kiddies..i havent updated this in awhile..so im just gnna leave an entry that doesnt require alot of writing on my part.

Alrite, i want u to leave me comments about your most memorable moment with friends/ family w/e..and then i wnt to know what song u want played at your funeral and why<-dude i feel like an english teacher...(yeah i stole the funeral ? from 89x this morning..)

my answers are: that night at shannons house with shannon, genna, and sandy..like the funniest weekend ever..playing euchre..sandy: OMFG GUYS I GOT A BOWSER!!! (we all slowly turn our heads to see what sandy is holding up...a 10 of spades..) sandy making the dumbest moves ever!..and poor me stuck on her damn team..later that night while playing euchre genna says omfg and smacks herself (long story but we dont allow ourselves to say god lol moving on) well right after genna punishes herself for her mistake i get a bad hand and yell O MY FUCKING GOD! and genna in an attempt to punish me, tries to kick me under the table only to bang her knee really hard on the table..she then screams JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! and then sandy screams because of all the commotion GOD DAMNITTTTT!!!!!! and that probably is my most memorable moment.

and the song id want played at my funeral would have to be.."another one bites the dust"( i also stole my answer from this guy who called in because i think its an awesome answer lol..yup thats right i cant think for myself.. sorry guys im a follower lol)

and i said in the beginning of this enrty it was gnna be short...oh well..shows u how much i know.

TRACK TRYOUTS BITCHES!!!

forgottn_dreams @ 2005-02-15T18:53:00

2005-02-15T23:59:09Z

Mama is drunk and freaking out on me about my father..exactly how all our fights start..and they end with me being kicked out or holes in random doors..cabnets and things b/c my moms a effing psycho. and it sucks even more when shes got her drunk friend here egging her on..thank god she left cause im about to effing kill her..

well anyways on a lighter note! im making friends with all these hott guys man..and im excited..who knows maybe theres a boyfriend in my future?..lol

umm yeah im gnna get off this computer b4 she comes back because battle 2 of world war 3 is gnna begin right when she walks through those doors behind me.

just lovely life is..OH GOSH..couldnt get off the computer fast enough..the wicked witch of the west is here.

forgottn_dreams @ 2005-02-10T14:49:00

2005-02-10T19:50:54Z

Can't pretend that you're nothing special
You've got to look at all of your options
You can't decide what to go for
When it's all about trust
You see yourself on the TV
You read your magazine
You can't explain how it's come to be this
Stop and think...
When it's all about trust

THIS COVERAGE, your centre spread
YOUR NEON LIGHT DAYDREAM will
Shatter and break
AND IF YOU THINK I'M THINKING OF
YOU'RE VALUE HERE
YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S LOSING CONTROL

This eventual stop, this break in the mould
I scream down this hotline
Just to feel something

THIS SITUATION isn't getting any better
I SEE THAT LOOK IN YOUR EYES (the look in your eyes)
YOU WANT TO SEE A PRETTY FACE?
There isn't anything wrong with giving up
And for what it's worth
I STILL HATE YOU

ill forgive but i will NEVER forget

2005-02-07T19:56:05Z

Boys blow..like times a million...and no matter how much id love to publicly embarrass and harass him..ive decided to shut my mouth and move on..(RARRR U STUPID FUCK U I HATE YOU!)..whew..now that im done with that..my day was pretty alright..ashley wrote me a note..i feel special i heart her..i mis my old espanol class..its sad. school is not fun. im done with this journal entry. later my loves.

forgottn_dreams @ 2005-02-06T17:52:00

2005-02-06T22:58:33Z

Sorry guys i havent updated this mofo in like fo-eva. umm Genna is my best friend in the whole entire world. her house is awesome..mommy is considering moving out there..but not until im outta high school..so thats kinda pointless for me. umm i really wnt this damn bird i saw in a pet shop..me n him bonded..umm i went out with tommy fer a while but i dumped him cause he is a butthole. mcdonalds is gay. i hate it there..im gnna work at KMART BITCHES! and ummm..im hungry so bye.

be happy..atleast i updated it..TURN THAT FROWN UPSIDE DOWN!

whoop-dee-do

2005-01-14T21:25:28Z

cleaning

gennas comeing over. were talking this out finally

tommy might come over? but i dno i think tonite would be a bad night for him to come over..its a girls not tonite.

keri is coming over later and me her n genna are gnna like rent 20 chick flicks and watch them in a row until we pass out.

sandy mite come to? she insits on it. lol

ive got work sunday.

im doing nothing tommarow. i have no life..yes

my sister is a bitch so im done with this journal entry hoessss..

Dude, wheres my car..

2005-01-14T02:59:34Z

If you only once would let me
Only just one time
Then be happy with the consequence
With whatever's gonna happen tonight
Don't think we're not serious
When's it ever not
The love we make is give and it's take
I'm game to play along

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get outta this place
While we still have time?

All the best DJs are saving
The slowest song for last
When the dance is through
It's me and you
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
It's just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get outta this place
While we still have time?
Wanna take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time?
Yeah - We still have time

Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do..

today work was horrifying..school..was school. nothing special. i dont have to take my math final cause im cool like that :D. and umm mondays gnna be a blow off day cause i have my orchestra final and math final which, once again, im not taking.. and umm yeah im just rambaling..ignore me.

KaDiZZle67: Girls r like apples on a tree. The really good ones r at the top. Sometimes boys don't reach for the good ones becuz they are afraid of falling and gettin hurt. They just get the rotten ones on the bottom becuz theyre easy. So the ones at the top think there is sumthin wrong wit them but really theyre great. They just need to wait for a guy who isn't afraid to take a chance and reach for them...

aww i remember when kareem sent me this when i was depressed about John..and he told me that i was one of the girls at the top and not to worry. awww..i heart him so much. even though he so didnt write that and actually stole it from some girls pro! lol..it was still sweet.

forgottn_dreams @ 2005-01-10T20:10:00

2005-01-11T01:21:25Z

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

i didnt go to school today! it was a fun lazy day...last night i was up watching movies and shit..and today i jsut couldnt get up for school. i went to the dentist today..ewwiieee..i hate dentists..scrapping your teeth n stuff..gross..my dentist is gay..like no joke. hes the best..him and his tight purple dentist outfits with his purple feathery pen..and his lovely high picthed voice..i find it amusing lol..who'd of thought..a gay dentist. anyways..im gnna go watch my daily 4 hours of tv and rot my mind with all that crazzyness. kool show on tonite for all those horse racing fans like myself. called american dream derby or something..im gnna check it out. later ya'll (texas accent)

<3D to the Rizzle. Phizzll (Dr.Phill as my lovely freshman calls me)

forgottn_dreams @ 2005-01-06T22:12:00

2005-01-07T03:22:32Z

wow..today was a snow day. awesome snow day at that..i lost my retainer AGAIN sadly..lol i tricked my dad and dentist into gettin me another one lmao..hes so pissed at me..anyway..umm i went to work..nothing happened..tommy came over for a bit!! hes taking me out to dinner tommarow. im excited..<3

KaDiZZle67: u remind me of a cat
KaDiZZle67: soft, gentle but if u grab its tail its gona scratch ur face up

tahts so awesome..

we have school tommarow..its sad..i dont wnna go..today felt like a friday. im jsut rambaling cause i have nothing better to do..im not gnna be able to get up tommarow..fuck..i hate school. good bye.

i sit here locked inside my head, remembering everything you said..

2005-01-04T01:36:03Z

this silence gets us nowhere way to fast...

My new love...

Senses Fail-Bloody Romance
Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.

You and me are like one heart-beat.

So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.

Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
(Forget my name)Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
(Forget my name)You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
(Forget my name)This time in silence, this time I win.

Wow..i really managed to get myself in another mess once again..i jsut dont kno what to do anymore..to listen 2 my closest friends..or to follow my heart..

but what is following your heart?..we dont live in a fairy tale life..sometimes following your heart isnt the "sensible thing to do"..all i wnt to do is belive that im not being tricked..that he really does mean what he says..my heart belives him..but my head doesnt..its telling me to turn and run..never look back..and im just so lost..

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-25T22:50:00

2004-12-26T04:02:07Z

christmas season-

*lost my purse...

*christnas eve was awesome otherwise

*christmas day was kool till i got sick..:/

*my hair turned out cute!!..

*i got work tommarow..then im goin to the plex to play some soccer with a buncha ppl!!

im tired..i was up till 3 watching bring it on again..which was a horribly gay movie..dont watch it.

i get too see nick thursday!! im excited..he rocks my socks!!! :D

Its christmas all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-21T23:48:00

2004-12-22T05:13:47Z

my hearts beating outta my chest..woooooahhh-hoooo

anyway..lol..gettin my hair cut soon!! yippie sick of this hair..i wnt something new..me n kareem are talking about ways to commit suicide..interesting convesation..im not serious..but im wondering if he is..:/

cari, shelby, n tayler are all smoking in my house..thats not good..smoking is bad..causes cancer..

i got track tommarow so i should be going to bed..thank god all were doing is lift weights..im to sore for anything else..

farewell all goodnight!!

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2004-12-19T16:09:36Z

_lovely_losers hm am i suppose to use an LJ cut for that? lmao..oh well if im suppose to just leave a comment or w/e..</p>

i like this poem its beautiful

Annabel Lee-Edgar Allen Poe

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-18T15:07:00

2004-12-18T20:09:51Z

+Christinas here
+Im hungry
-My gerbil had a baby but i was told it will die...
+My birdy is alive thank god.
+I got to eat burger king today :D.
-I threw away my oh so lovely drawing..its sad..
+im gnna make another one though!
+im gnna get a milk shake soon! *excitment*
+and whadda yah know! ITS CHRISTMAS BREAK BITCHES!!

*Dont get your panties all up in a bunch..ill be back soon.

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-13T15:55:00

2004-12-13T21:16:01Z

well..i havent updated this mofo in a few days soo..uhhh i got my kingdom hearts game which is like friggen awesome..im excited..a bit different then the ps2 version but still friggen awesome..i cant beat this damn boss on there..faggot.went through a tramatic experiance saturday..my dog ate my bird..but he actually didnt eat my bird..my bird was hiding in a bag half dead..but hes okay now! :D. i stole my moms car with keri..im sucha fruit. i was like freaking out..would definitly suck if we got caught..its one thing when jessie steals ehr moms car and drives around but its another when we steal my moms...i almost had a heart attack..today ms.ouroke said something funny..but i cant remember what it was about..something about gettin shot..i didnt turn in my stock report for econ..oh well..i think my gerbils pregnant. english we watched this ghetto christmas movie..4th hr we had worm races and my worm beat zaks worm! haha...i get gummy worms tomamrow in science! umm i dno what else to say about my days so im off..farewell for now.

<luvvvvvvvvv3 me!

today.

2004-12-09T03:09:46Z

..Jeff likes my fuzzy coat..he likes to pet it!!! :D. lol yah..after school today was pretty hectic. i had to go to mcdonalds like RIGHT after school and i had to do like all these random things..and they made me scrap like caked on milkshake batter off the back of this machine..it was disgusting..and now i smell like rotten milkshakes..so im gnna take a shower. farewell

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-07T20:17:00

2004-12-08T01:30:30Z

i had an intersting day..nothing happened in school..nothing ever happens there..just a normal day..i got 2 new pairs of pants today..im excited!!..umm im really excited..my highlight of the like past few weeks..finally putting into words whats been goin on latley..im really happy..i feel kool..mommy and aunty say i have class..some select special ppl kno what im talking about (keri n cari and a few other ppl i blabbed to cause im a big blabber mouth.) so yah thats it..im happy with myself.

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-06T09:30:00

2004-12-06T14:31:13Z

Adopt Your Own Emo Kid!

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-12-01T19:08:00

2004-12-02T00:24:37Z

*No names were used in the making of this journal entry

Well last night was a scary night. Blank was very sick last night. i was almost sure he was going to die. it got me very upset. most ppl wouldnt understand thats y i didnt really wnna talk about it but im writing this in a journal..a bit ironic huh. just for anybody that actually cares, hes doing much better im really happy. i dont kno what id do if he died..but lets not think like that! hes on some crazy meds and hes looking SO much better. on a lighter note..im looking for clothes on the internet so my dad knows what to get me for christmas?..hes a crazy mofo..i finished my fairy drawing..i think it turned out pretty good..a few things are messed up but its pretty good. ive done better though. umm yah i got an econ test tommarow so i gtta study cause i dno even whats going on..bye!

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-11-30T16:45:00

2004-11-30T21:50:18Z

Well..im going to ramble for..i dno a while. isnt that what everybody does in these damn things..just ramble on and on about there life and absoultly nothing..so im going to be a follower and do what everyone else does.so today. i fell asleep in econ. tried to fix my.."interesting" painting for english..ended up screwin it up even more..its so bad..oh well..4th hr i worked on my drawing..its lookin pretty damn good rite now..umm..lunch was hilarious Alex is my idol! i <heart3 her oh so much. eric needs to die..i fucking despise him. if murder was legal..then id strangle him..grrr..anyways. lol 6th hr was..gay what else..i hate espanol..its so boring..

NoT YoUr StAr 5: i got a job
Metalhedskater00: me too lol
Metalhedskater00: a blow job!
Metalhedskater00: :D

*Oh how i miss him oh so much..i luv you keith..*

ive decided i really wnna learn how to play the guitar and piano..i dno y..i should probably focus in the instrument i kno..violin..but violins are no fun..i had to drop off my work permit today at mcdonalds. umm..i have nothing else to say so goodbye.

And it's over
but just started.
The blood stained the carpet
her heart like a crystal.
She's lucid and departed.
The life left behind she can find in her mind gone away.
Away with these nightmares,
away with suburbia, shake down, away.
You marry a role
and you give up your soul til you breakdown.

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Name
Birthdate
You killed
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hahah i killed lindsey lohan..bitch!

yuck

2004-11-30T00:53:50Z

ha..look at my star hes throwing up..isnt that cazy.
uhh i feel like crap. i dont kno y im writing in this. i got the job at mcdonalds. o what a joy. i feel like im gnna puke. everything else hurts. especially my head. my family is a group of absolute retards. i had the mcdonalds orientation thing today. i cant work till i get a damn work permit. nobody told me that..so now i wont get put on the schedule until uhh..thursday which is gay. but oh well..mcdonalds is like really weird place..u break one rule and your fired. i can get in trouble for not greeting every customer that walks in the door. thats a buncha BULLSHIT..wtf man..i dont wnt a fucking boyfriend. GO AWAY. goshhhhhh..wtf is there no decent/datable guy in this world..w/e im going no i feel like shit and ppl are starting to annoy me.

bye.

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-11-27T14:48:00

2004-11-27T20:04:57Z

well in 2 days me n the kids broke..1..2..3..4..5 rules atleast..wow man if we woulda gotten caught i dont think any of us would have a liscense till were like 24 lmao. hey..atleast we wore seatbelts!:D..delanos brothers house..there was alot of ->singing, porn, and stripping<-lmfao fun night.

anywhooo today i think im gnna sit aound, mommy and my bunny rabbit are sick.. :(..so i think i mite stay home tonite. i tried to make a grilled cheese sandwich but it didnt work. i almost set the kitchen on fire. lol sorry im ramabaling.

i applied to Mik-a-dees..i need a damn job. i hope i get it. if i dont im gnna try and apply at kiernans and gelatos i guess..i really dont wnna work there though..i think id rather work at mcdonalds..but..well its a job. hey man the faster i get a job, the faster i get my horse! well im gnna go now..check out the internet see if i can find anything about my poor bunny rabbit cadbury..

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-11-25T21:19:00

2004-11-26T02:34:08Z

Well happy thanksgiving all! ive noticed that thanksgiving is kind of a dumb holiday.

this whole break so far has been awesome. yesterday night was so fun. chasing liberty was SUCH a good movie. today i went to my uncles and i played gameboy advanced all afternoon..damn mario game..grr! then we played pool! i love that game. my mommy then dropped me off at my daddys and we spent the rest of the day with him. we ate dinner..again lol. Rachel came over and we went out. we brought Sarah some turkey and then we drove around. then she went home and i made smores!! oww..somethings really wrong with my right arm..i can barley move it..well im gnna go and watch shrek 2 for the second time. that movie is so awesome. puss is my hero. i <3 him. well im gnna go now.

hehe monday should be a "fun" day..full of surpries! :D

You're a mean one, Mr. Grinch.You really are a heel. You're as cuddly as a cactus, You're as charming as an eel. Mr. Grinch. You're a bad banana. With a greasy black peel.You're a monster, Mr. Grinch. Your heart's an empty hole. Your brain is full of spiders, You've got garlic in your soul. Mr. Grinch. I wouldn't touch you, with a thirty-nine-and-a-half foot pole.

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-11-20T20:41:00

2004-11-21T01:41:14Z

heh..well today i decided to not go anywhere and hang out..regroup..had a really crappy/busy past few weeks..so i watched this show on vh1 and it was like 4 hours long..
im kinda nervous at the moment because nobodys home and im all alone..idk i think im just neurotic..im suppose to "babysit" tonite but my sisters arent here so i guess you cant call it babysitting..more like housesitting..i wonder if im getting paid..i hope so. sry im incoherent today and this journal entry is just a mess of random thoughts.
i saw this commercial for the kingdom hearts sequel video game..i had no idea it already came out..im so excited..i wnna get it so bad,(yah im a video game freak..well not really im only a video game freak for kingdom hearts because i <3 that game!)
WHEW hottt guyyy on tv at the moment..his hair is so long you cant even see his eyes..its sexy..
Oh i found this assortment of like awesome horses all around 5 grand.. i found 4 awesome jumpers, 7 dressage horses, and 2 eventers!!!yay if only i could convince my "thrifty" father that a horse is a good investment. :(
heres some of my favorites..

Tommi Girl

he doesnt have a name yet.

Envy

Dr. Exotic (kinda funky name but hey o well lol. hes a racehorse only a few races though..)

Ante Up Red (she is a racehorse to but never been raced)

Yippies Finale

Career Skipper (17.1 hands..hes a big boy)

Von Rotchilds Victory(crazy name lmao)

Executive Player

and those are only a few of them..ahhhhh i wnna horse damnit!

enough of the horse hoopla..i think im going to draw this girl in my lj..shes fucking awesome. but idk if id be able to do it..we'll will see

hmm its kidna weird being imed by all these crazy ppl from ftj kinda makes me nervous..ppl are weird especially the like 30 yr olds iming me talking about how it wouldnt be illegal if i didnt tell on him or somebody found out..man i think i need to get myself off that website. there were some cute guys..AH speak of the devil another im from a deranged 30 year old man..eh.

ive got $5 and i really wnna go get an oreo mcflurry but getting up and walking to McDonalds is just too much effort.

hmm i hate edsel ford..i wnna switch schools girls at edsel are like demons out to eat every thing i have to be happy about. but i guess im a bit of a hypocrite :(im not the sweetest to some ppl.

i swear there is someone outside my window..once again im neurotic..

well i think ive typed way to damn much in this thing.so im gnna go.

i <3 all of you!

forgottn_dreams @ 2004-11-19T16:29:00

2004-11-19T21:29:41Z

wow..intersting few days..
-But mrs.schmdit i tried..mrs. schmidt slowly shakes her head and dramaticly says..there is no try..there is only do..and this is what youve done..(stares blankly at horrible painting of what is suppose to be a tree but looks more like a finger painting done by a group of toodlers)
-today in english..derek lowe was at our school (yes the Boston Red Sox pitcher). and well keri wnted to see him but our subsitute wouldnt let us leave so for the first half hour we begged him and threatend to leave and we actually attempted to leave but he caught us everytime..so we jus sayd oh what the hell and we ran out of the classroom and down the hall to the auditorium. we hear the class go into an uproar as we dash down the halls. only to find that there are no seats left in the auditorium so we ran back towards the class..a security guard asks us y we are running we say oh were jus tryin to get some excerise and hes was like oh okay!!:D so we ran off..only to find that the subsitute called the office and our teacher. she was SO pissed lmfao...i think were gnna get in trouble monday lmao..so for the rest of the hour me n keri did many other things to try and piss him off..keri called him a fat basterd and she treid to make the class chant derek lowe but that didnt work..so me keri n tasha dive under the tables for some odd reason?..lol and i pretended to panic about terrorists and osma bin laden and how were all gnna die..and jus oh goooooddddd so many things happened lmao..oh and by the way..we dont even like derek lowe that much..good times at edsel ford high school with keri-bear..
im going now..farewell to all who are reading this.

And even if his plane crashes tonight
he'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea